October 18, 2015

We’ll Never Know

"You'll never know." I whispered this to Joey Kate and kissed her as we were walking through WalMart and she was being cute and funny. I probably say this to her a dozen times a day. "You'll never know." And she won't.

She'll never know how much she was wanted. She'll never know how much she was prayed for. She'll never know all the shots, medicine, dr. appointments I had so that she would have the hope of a healthy life. She'll never know how it took every ounce of strength I had to have her. She'll never know how much she's loved.

       I thought about how God must whisper this to us a dozen times a day as well. We'll never know.

We'll never know how much we are wanted. We'll never know how much we are interceded for. We'll never know all the beatings, wounds, and scars He had so that we would have the hope of eternal life. We'll never know how it took every ounce of His earthly strength to die on the cross for us. We'll never know how much we are loved.

I am overwhelmed. I am humbled. I am blessed...all because I will never know.

"We love him, because He first loved us."

John 4:19  (KJV)

January 1, 2015

He’s Been Faithful

As 2014 wraps up and I think about this past year, my mind replays ups and downs that I stumbled through.  In March, I got news from my Dr. that wasn’t the greatest.  Granted, it could’ve been a lot worse, but could’ve been better, too.  I cried for what seemed so impossible at the time.  I remember sitting on the couch and John wiping away my tears, telling me to trust the Lord’s plan and timing for it all.

When I think of that now, I have to smile.  I have to smile because here it is, not even a whole year later, and I see the Lord’s faithfulness sleeping in my arms.  Not even a whole year later, and I see the Lord’s plan clearer than I ever have.  Not even a whole year later, and I see how His ways are so much higher than my own. 

So, as far as 2014 goes, I will forever cherish it as a reminder of His faithfulness.  Hopefully, as you look back on this past year, you, too, can see His fingerprints amidst all of your own ups and downs.  He’s been faithful in 2014, and I know He’ll be faithful in 2015, as well! 

Happy 2015, Friends!
“But the Lord is faithful…”
2 Thessalonians 3:3  KJV

April 16, 2014

I Wonder What Mary Saw

When they placed the crown of thorns on His head, I wonder if Mary thought about all the times she had ruffled his little boy hair?

When He stumbled and fell under the weight of the cross, I wonder if Mary saw the unsteady steps of a little boy, learning to walk?

When she saw the stripes and bruises on His back, I wonder if she thought about all the little boy hurts she had kissed away?

When He crawled onto the cross, I wonder if Mary saw her baby learning to crawl?

When they nailed His hands, I wonder if Mary saw two chubby little baby hands?

When they took His feet and began to hammer, I wonder if she saw the baby boy feet she once playfully tickled?

When He cried out in pure agony, I wonder if Mary heard the cries of her newborn baby boy?

When she looked at His face, beaten, bloody, and unrecognizable, I wonder if Mary saw her beautiful boy?

When He said, “It is finished”, I wonder if Mary was thinking about the beginning?

When He took His last breath, I wonder if Mary was thinking about His first?

When she looked at His broken body hanging high up on the cross, I wonder if she knew it was for me?

April 2, 2014

“Have You Considered My Servant?”

    Most usually when you are getting ready to assign a task, you choose the most qualified.  You generally don’t choose the weakest member of the group, you pick someone who will get the job done.  Someone you trust and have confidence in:  someone you believe in.  If you are the overseer, you want to know that when that whatever the job assigned, your person will do it, do it well, and get it finished.

    I feel like Job was God’s “person”.  When the satan came around, the Lord knew exactly who He wanted for the job.  He knew that Job had faith and trust in Him and wouldn’t back down.  He would stand through any tests and temptations, firm.  Job was the person for the job.  When things got tough, and we all can read how tough it actually got, the Lord had confidence in His servant.  The Lord knew Job’s heart.  He trusted him to do the job, do it well, and finish the task.

    How many times things pop up in our lives that don’t seem to be the best of situations.  You feel tested and tried and spent on every level.  Life gets hard.  I want to be the kind of servant, like Job, that the Lord has utmost confidence in.  The kind of servant that He can say, “have you considered my servant Amy?”  The kind of servant He can depend on. 

So when tests and trials knock us down, and they will, keep an unwavering faith…the Lord may have specifically chosen the best servant, you, for that particular test.


“And the Lord said unto satan, “Hast thou considered my servant Job, that there is none like him in the earth, a perfect and an upright man, one that feareth God, and escheweth evil?

Job 1:8 KJV

March 25, 2014

Giving Up on “Easy”

“For our present troubles are small and won't last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever!”

2 Corinthians 4:17


This was the verse I needed after a rough couple of weeks.  My sweet, patient husband reminded me that “God has a plan for us.” And my response was, “I know but it doesn’t make it any easier right now.”  I didn’t want a plan…I wanted easy.  I didn’t want a fight…I wanted easy.  I didn’t want an uphill climb…I wanted easy.  I didn’t want unknowns…I wanted easy.  I wanted the kind of easy that other people seemed to have and not even realize it.  I felt entitled to easy. 

          Sitting in church on Sunday, I replayed our conversation back.  Then it hit me that I’m not entitled to easy.  He didn’t promise easy…He promised to show up when things got hard.  He didn’t promise easy…He promised to help carry our burdens.  He didn’t promise easy…He promised to stand on the battlefield beside us. 

          This is part of the song we sing at church by the Crabb Family:

So many times I question the certain circumstances of things I could not understand.
And many times in trials, my weakness blurs my vision, and my frustration gets so out of hand.
It's then I am reminded, I've never been forsaken.
I've never had to stand one test alone.
When I look at all the victories, the Spirit rises up in me.
It's through the fire my weakness is made strong.

He never promised that the cross would not get heavy and the hill would not be hard to climb.
He never offered victories without fighting but He said help would always come in time.
Just remember when you're standing in the valley of decision and the adversary says give in,   Just hold on.
Our Lord will show up
and He will take you through the fire again!

            So right now, I’m going to trust His promises, even though they don’t always include “easy”.  I’m holding on, knowing that he’ll show up.  I know that the tougher the trial the more His glory shines and so for right now, I’m okay with giving up on easy.